kept secret till death
I saw, I felt, I lived through it.
All I question - why didn't I quit?
I didn't stop, I didn't fight
All I wanted was to seek back the light
Shining bright, not fight.
But lately it's been all too tight.
I try to hold, I try to breathe
All I can do is what I was to grief.
Wishing it to be a dream
Yet life spit in my face, it's not on my team.
I wish to scream.
Scream - however the secret has been a silenced theme.
I had my choice, a choice to voice
But all I did was mute
I tried to act poised
Why was he a brute
A disgrace for human race
His touch still a remembered flame
I wish I couldn't remember that face
But maybe I'm the one to blame
But Maybe it's right to be
Victimizing self
Hoping its the key
Putting thoughts behind the last shelf
Forgetting the past
Forgetting the pain
But it won't last
Till I feel the doubled chain
Now I know what to do
What happened wasn't accidental
Suffer and pain all at once
Every second every point
It's with me -Among me. All the time
Can't get away from the truth
I have to speak, it's now to shine
Any wait will be fatal
Important to now be verbal
Can't keep miss all sign
This Agony all my youth
Never lived a prime
Shiver in every joint
Say and not be nonce
I must be consequential
The secret won't be dead but true
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