HOW CAN IT BE 100% MY RESPONSIBILITY WHEN I ASK FOR HELP BUT I DON'T GET THE…

HOW CAN IT BE 100% MY RESPONSIBILITY WHEN I ASK FOR HELP BUT I DON'T GET THE HELP THAT I NEEDED?! What should I do, I really feel I want to die tonight. Just how much long should I live? Can I please have a rest? I'm so tired, I'm exhausted, I want to die!