Where did my inner child
Go..
He did not aimlessly used to wear that formal smile and passes it to the world but despite of unrealistic laughter & this smile his happiness used to to make his heart dance
his enthusiasm use to shine
like diamonds in his innocent eyes meanwhile now that child tries to depict lies from his illegitmate face expression*
to fit in this world in legitimate and utter state of
pointlessness and depression*
Oh child inside us
You have such a heart that used to be so lubricated with true joy in such a little things~
Visiting new place you knew nothing of excited you to the point you wanted to explore it as much as possible know the mysterious world around you
Cause your tiny heart thought that the world is so big and filled with wonderful that your tiny hands wanted to grasp and embrace~
But then gradually the warmth faded away realising that this life is not a bed of roses... But a race~
A race against reality and your very self and a unjustified fight for " survival"
The inner child used to think that life is supposed to be lived but no it is all about now surving through out these flames somehow
Wow
There exists no true joy anymore... This survival of the fittest... Became a painful game ..
See
True joy sealed off...
There exists no sun shine like before
Mankind ... Wearing a mask and decaying the naturalness of life&society
I look for you ohh child
Deep in the darkness searching everywhere to find myself...
Where are you my inner child
Seems like
Harsh reality crushed you
Lies broke you
People's selfishness... Swallowed you...
Cold hearts... Led you deeper into a ocean you never knew you'd be able to go...
Oh child... How do I stop your cries...
How long until... You completely vanish away ?leaving me all broken and incomplete
Don't you wish to create a world with greenery within yourself to bloom
Don't you want to free yourself from the darkness you locked up yourself away from your favourite things and this mysterious world u used to smile at with curiousity and always looked forward to
Scared... Lonely... Loveless waiting from ages for something entirely unknown
Oh lingering child
What do you wish to see
What do you wish to be
Don't you feel kinda lonely ?being there
Don't you want to see the paradise so far and so high
Don't you want to go on an adventure of your own like
Hey the child inside me where have you faden away?
Come here.... And sit like a lively kid
Tell me the things that used to reflect starts and moon in your (mine) eyes
As if they all are shining for you only and only you
Tell me how even i looked when my smile use to be real.
...
What's the point of Being so called mature .and knowing life..if you have started to think things more than
You feel things..
more than you taste them
the child inside you had to engulf his innocence for survival in a cruel world
By running away from your heart to the brain
But how cruel have you become to yourself....
By running away from your own heart...
Yea
Still
Stucked in my head remembering the happy lil child i used to be
A cold place
No warmth apparent to exist
A place where there is no living thing
Curled up waiting for light in
A place so unknown... No doors to trespass
No mirrors to look...
No walls either !
No tears no smile
Just numbness
A place of infinite darkness, myths silence and nothingness
A place where the birds are not singing
A place
Where even flowers are hiding there tears
Oh weeping flowers in the garden
Why do you cry
For something you can't get
~(To be continued)
Image not owned by me
- By Karin(kusuma) (another artist) and Rishabh (May)
🌹
-part one of this collaborated dark
type long thoughtful poem ~
i will upload part two
of this 🦾🤍 collab poem soon poets... .P.S- PEACE
Have fun reading ,i had to upload some poetries in part yea.Have a Good day
2021
©rishabh567
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