~this is my heart and soul. my love and hate. my truth and pain~
august 21st, 2016
last sentence of last journal entry
"i just feel like a fuck up you know"
i took all the steps i could
to walk away from you.
the way you made me feel,
you made me feel brand new.
you make me so high,
i can't live without you.
i love and hate you baby
and that is just the truth.
you made my body warm
you made my spirit right
you held me in your arms
youre always by my side
i chose you over everything
i just wanted you next me
i was so very broken
and you were my ecstasy
i lost everything for you
it was so much pain that i felt
so when i tried to take my life
i went to you for some help
i almost died that night
i thought what we had was "love"
but God brought me back
i thank the lord up above
i can't even blame you
because i new what it was
and if i had to do it over
i would of never done drugs.
~heroin
sobriety date october 31st 2016
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