I've cried in bed every night
Since the very first day
Of January
I haven't had a peaceful nights sleep for so long
I often find myself replaying all those days and nights with you
I remember every argument
Everytime you hurt me
The list just grew
I dont know why I stayed so long
Why I let you get comfortable hurting me
I now live in the aftermath
Every day I wake up and debate whether today is the day to write my final goodbye
'I'm sorry I didn't say but my mind was messed up you couldn't save me anyway'
I swear to god it takes everything within me to fight suicide every single day
I try to convince myself this life is worth living
I am still trying to make myself believe that I am not just 'damaged goods' as you told me
You've really fucked me up
But I'm a Queen
built to fight against all odds
and so are you babygirl
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