4am I'm still awake
Before the dawn the night
will come with nightmares
(I won't let him in)I am just waiting
Restless beats of heart
& breathing break the silence...
I am still here.
4:00 am
I have been here before
In a corner, on the floor
Sorrow chose this hour
Sadness set this time
Into the dark
Where I breathe free
But you can't see
Like a universe without a sun
And a black hole soul
Creating an abcense of light
(Like we are born broken inside)
The absence of light
Narrows my eyesight
But still I see them
It's not angels that sing
And call me by my true name
They have forsaken me
Dead tired but aware
Sleep invites the demons,
I am not prepared
I have to stay awake
Without fear I watch
for the new sun
to burn the horizon,
black flames from the
deathstar above.
The reason for me
to see Death
in my dreams
A silent reminder
The end of all
will kill the pain
Slowly I sear, I bury myself alive
And feel the weight of the world
Crushing all, to the abyss I fall
There are monsters
in my head,
on my walls,
under my bed..
I am dying
I am jaded
I am numb
I am counting on the sun.
Salvation to come.
I am still the
sleepless dreamer
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