I saw you.
my brown eyes they felt like glue.
locked in time.
lost just staring at you.
memorizing every angelic detail.
drinking you in.
drunk off you like some wine.
like getting high for the first time I was a addict.
obsessed with something so beautiful so pure my mind couldn't comprehend.
I tried to articulate how I feel.
the words felt like vomit.
every syllables.
every phrase.
falling over each other.
my eyes were paralyzed.
my body was stiff.
heavy as a board.
never again light as a feather.
falling in love's gaze.
knocking on a forbidden door.
feelings burning like a flame.
yet I wanted you like a wet dream.
thought of you like a fantasy born on poetic intoxication of views.
watching you Walk.
watching you smile.
wanting to talk to you just for a while.
knowing you are out of my league.
just going quietly in trees.
a lovesick poet and the girl that could bring me to my knees.
yet I am twelve.
what do I know about love?
all I know is I wanted me and you to be.
wanting you in my arms when no other girl would look at me.
crying tears when my loneliness was killing me.
we were not exclusive but I wanted us to be.
I wanted your heart.
that unraveling thought was obvious to me.
to look into your blue eyes and never let go.
falling yet tortured by the emotions that were fierce like fire.
as I wanted you so bad careful I might be burned just by wanting to know you.
to love such a bombshell.
you're the Red hot flame that made me feel dust.
the unquenchable heat.
as I would die just to feel your warmth.
wanting heaven.
desiring hell.
my dreams once paradise.
as I fell.
I was caught up in your spell.
you a weakness.
a kryptonite of some kind.
my powers to love not set on love.
as I ran out of time.
my pen bleeding dry.
the love letter smoking like burned rubber.
the words they played out like foreplay.
when I was a fool when it came matters of the heart.
I was a fool for you.
that's how the lie starts.
©darkmocha
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