when you get comfortable with pain you can feel it run through your every vein. when it's been so long since you've felt joy you stay with that awful boy. so scared to be happy you can't leave even though you're on the verge of snapping. its been so long since i've pulled out that old friend it feels like its time to see it again. the blade that will surely seal your fate. I thought love was supposed to make you feel better but this one just makes me feel so bitter. I could leave but I've tried so often you wouldn't believe. I've been here so long I don't feel anywhere else I'd belong. leaving I'd be lost but staying could come with a hefty cost. they say not to decide is to decide but would either way lead to suicide?
©sorelylost
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