A CRY.

I've been married for ten years now
I'm so unhappy
And it's not my husband's fault
He does everything to make me happy
He says I shouldn't worry and trust God's time
But it seems that God has forgotten me
It's ten good years and no cry of a child has been heard in my matrimonial home
We went for tests and we were all okay
I'm wondering what's wrong
God haven't I been a faithful servant
Haven't I served you in truth and honesty
God I've always cried for the fruit of my womb
When will you remove this shame on me
Don't I deserve to be called a mother like other women
Hubby says it's okay we can adopt
But I'm not for the idea for I need my own baby
I want to feel her growing in me
Feel her kicks as she plays
In my tummy
I want to feel the joy of motherhood
Go in labour and feel the pain of childbearing
I want to go through everything a mother goes through to be called a mother
I need a baby of my own
Dear God please bless my womb
Hubby I know it hurts you seeing me so sad
The nights I wake up to cry
I feel I've failed you as a woman
All your friends have kids
Others are even graduating
But you my hubby
You are childless and it's my fault
It kills me seeing you carring other people's children
Knowing fully you miss to hold your own
Even though you don't tell me I still see it in your eyes
You refused to marry a second wife
All for the love you have for me
I'm helpless and I don't know what to do
Days are going but still nothing
God bless me with a baby
Just the same way you answered
Hannah's prayer
God remember me
Just like Sarah who in old age you
blessed her with baby Isaac
Heavenly Father not forgetting
Rachael you still blessed her womb
and gave her two handsome boys
It's me now
Crying for you
To bless me
I'm on my knees
I'm begging you Lord
Touch my womb
And make me happy again.
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain
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