Tears rolled down my cheeks
Not of joy but pain
Not just pain but misery
I think that's an under statement coz what ever i felt was unexplainable
Wajua at times i hold on
Trying to fight the pain
Faking a smile for the world
Acting fine while breaking inside
This life joh I wish it had rehearsals
I wish kuna vile ninge train on tactics and life skills before facing life first hand
The struggle is real
At times I just sit on my bed facing the most difficult situations with nothing but tears in my eyes
At times I just wanna take the razor and cut so deep to reach my unending pain
It's so hard being on your own
Struggling with your self
Fighting to keep moving
Not loosing any hopes
It's difficult you know
Manze Mimi at times hufeel nipoa tu ni end my life coz sioni umuhimu wangu hapa
Uchungu maumivu mateso ya kila aina
Vita napigana nakuloose ndo naloose
It's like the more I fight the tougher it gets
Nikamavile nazama baharini
Maji yananizidi the waves get stronger
And I'm all alone struggling to keep floating
I'm lost in a big jungle
Full of wild animals
And I can't find my way back
It starts to rain and I'm surrounded with every dangerous animal you can think of
They all stare at their dinner
And I'm just there looking at them crying trembling wishing they would just stop staring and tear my flesh eat me and finally save me from this torture
I'm lost
I'm gone
I'm dead
But alive
Trapped in my mind
Jailed and torture
It's a cry of help
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain
©mara_pain
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