I'm afraid of the things I feel
I'm afraid to say them loud
I'm afraid to express my innermost self
I'm afraid of what they'll say
I'm scared they'll call me ungrateful
I'm scared they'll call me petty
I'm scared they'll yell at me for being so miserable
And push me away for always being sad
I'm terrified of the monsters beside my bed
For they got tired of hiding under
I'm terrified of the voices in my head
For they get louder as days go by
I'm sorry I hide it all inside
Because I know you'd careless
You'd probably think I'm just seeking attention
But honestly I'm dead inside
Yeah i said it
The pain I feel eats me up
And I don't even know how to explain
I can't put it down on paper
Words fail me
I feel trapped in a dark corner
Tied with ropes and cuffs
I feel like I'm drowning
With stones tired to my feet
I'm screaming in silence
I'm crying with a smile
I'm asking for help but I'm fine
I'm fine is all you'll hear me say
I'm fine with a broken heart
I'm fine with the voices in my head
I'm fine with the monster tormenting me
I'm fine please see beyond it
Help, help me
Help is all I need
Free me from these chaines
Free me from my self
This is a cry of help
Help me!
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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