It happens all the time
And today feels like,
I am walking into a typhoon
Swimming against the tide
While letting out a piercing shriek
Yet no one came for my aid
Everyone stood there
Like watching a horror movie
In a movie theatre
Looking up at the sky
Everything seems so dull
Just stormy skies up ahead
Threatening to demolish my skull
I can't see a way out of this end
Maybe I am better off dead?
My daughters were there looking
Fearfully and horrifying
A feeling of guilt arises
For two lives depend on me
My special girls, my princesses
These dark thoughts I have inside
The bad things I want to do
The hurt I cause to myself
These scares upset me too
Why do I want to abandon,
Those previous little lives?
Yet pretend to be strong
Telling them it's going to be ok
The one wish I have
Is my kids never feel the pain
Or the feeling of self-hatred
Under dark clouds filled with rain
I see a ray of light
I can hear a voice from inside
Telling me - at this hour of darkness
You have to be strong
Don't forget your roots
To where you belong
Keep your Hopes high and you'll survive
The only thing which will help you thrive
So I Hope - hoping for Peace
Hope that I will find a reason
To smile again - after this season,
Is over - things will be fine
Everything will fall into place on time!
#Torture#Horror#Pain
©dorishnari
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