the lost feeling in your heart..
when all you want is to cry...
you have lost all hope, and all you want to do is die...
for nights you sit alone, having lost feelings you miss...
and you think to yourself,
"what did I do to deserve this?"
everyone mocks me, when I'm not sure what to do...
and lately, all I've been feeling is blue...
some people cant understand what I'm going through.
but when they ask you, you always say,
"what does it matter to you?"
when I feel mad, and when i mostly feel alone...
when you call, I'm not sure i should pick up the phone...
when you text me, i look at it with tears in my eyes...
and think to myself,
"God why cant I just... why God why..."
I write sad notes, feeling a painful scar...
and I always ask,
"why did I let it go this far?"
someday you'll need me...
like I always needed you...
someday you'll miss me..
like I always missed you...
someday you'll love me...
BUT..
i certainly wont love you.
©samib
M