The soft ground is cool as Luna lights a joint. Mind drifting to Them.
"Hi." Luna says into the translucent air with a tiny voice. Running her fingers through the green grass, she continues to talk. "I miss you... So fucking much. Still." Luna starts to gently sob. The last couple of days catching up with her. "I hope you're okay. Sometimes I think I am, but I don't really know." She shrugs to herself as she tries to catch her breath. "Things are really weird in my life right now... It's like our bubble popped when I left home and now I'm splattered everywhere. For all to see.... Fuck. I have a number one single right now, Babe. Like, what the FUCK is that? How much more anti-me could could I be??" She asks the light breeze. "Everything is so big and excessive... I miss being quiet so much......" She trails off, pulling her hood over her head.
Thinking of the nights her and Justin would hang out at home, creating together or meeting up with Mack, Tim and everyone else for small intimate performances, dinners, drinks or whatever..... Wistful plots of them overthrowing their government.... Marching through Manhattan together protesting against Trump's inauguration... Drunkenly laughing as they planned strategies for The Zombopocolypse.... Luna's breath shudders. "Fuck." She thinks as the tears drop.
"I'm getting married. Never thought I'd say that...." She sniffles into the bright blue sky. Fluffy clouds playing with her mind. "Not really an Us kind of thing, hunh...?" Luna stares up above for any sign from her dead lover. "I love him. And he asked. And I wanted to say Yes." Luna bites her lip, trying to fight away the new tears. "You two are so fucking different but have these same strange similarities." She sighs through the pain in her heart thinking of them both. "You wouldn't believe my life anymore.... You'd probably make fun of me for being a fucking sell out." She chuckles lightly. "Ugh. We were such fucking snobs." She laughs, plucking up thick strands of green grass aggressively with her fingers.
Luna continues to lay on her back, staring up at the brilliant blue sky. Remembering what it was like to be obscure. She can't breathe as her heart rips apart, thinking of a time when she was more important to Justin than any other substance.
Tears dripping out of the sides of her eyes. Trying to control her breathing, just as a cardinal lands upon the tip of her Van.
The bird sits as they stare at each other for a moment. Adjusting it's self, the cardinal cranes it's head, peering at Luna for what feels like an eternity.
Another bird sqwauks from above, causing it to turn it's head. Looking back to her, the cardinal stares again before blinking at Luna and flying away. Wings wide, soaring into the great wide, open blue sky.
"Bye." She whispers. Noticing she can breath again. More than slightly jealous of the bird's freedom.
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