A mothers love is precious
it surrounds you to be safe
it takes away all the pain
it destroys all the negativity and the hate
the doubts go away
you start to think
how nothing is more powerful
how nothing is that strong
But, what happens
when that mothers love goes away
when a part of you is damaged
when you need someone to turn to
You no longer have that mothers love
what are you to do with your emotions
you start to over analyze things
you start to believe and doubt
you start to lose faith in a god
A god that shows no change
a god you're supposed to give praise
That god is making you wait
... Then you think about hate
thoughts become negative
you shut out the people who can relate to your feelings
A mothers love both makes and breaks you
the mother can use that to manipulate
she can turn you into her faithful slave
anything she says is always okay
anything she does, shouldn't be questioned
Then you gain a fear of breaking her heart
not just hers, but yours as well
you'll sit and cry, wondering why
Then one day
you're helpless
You write things for her to read
your writing expresses your feelings
Yet, you do not show her your writing
it's hidden somewhere
A mothers love, makes you fragile
You think of times that will never occur again
you try to find that love somewhere else
Her love is too strong
it is impossible to find such a thing elsewhere
A mothers love
it is the love you dream about
it's unexplainable.
it's unfaithful
it's not loyal
Because that god you lost faith in has an enemy
it can get to the person you once
At a young age, called mommy
The enemy awaits
its seeks
it attacks
One its got your mother
you can only dream her love is back
©iamsatahja
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