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a painful journey

the journey began
taken to a dream land where peace and
love were the only plantation
you gave me peace showed me love
made me feel wanted ,your calls
your messages ,the emojis telling me
you miss me every time followed by
a thousand I love you
the journey began
your sweet love made me change my
ringtone from "don't you need somebody"
to "I have found the one for me" I played it
ten thousand times a day being it the first
song played first thing in the morning and
before I sleep ,we were still at the peak
the journey began
calls became to diminish ,missed calls
became a routine ,number busy became
a tune ,messages began to be less
emojis lost its meaning ,excuses became
your song and your time for me became a
a difficult thing for me to get
the journey began
I began to wonder ,began to worry
scared and afraid to loose you I began
to apologize for the mistakes I never did
apologized for calling you when you were busy
but all you did is just watching me dying to depression I changed my ringtone to "don't say you
love me unless you call "it made sense and yes
you never loved me at least you would have taught me how to live without you
©Joan Kembo