i am lost
my worth has been replaced with pain
the people who I thought loved me, proved me wrong
the people who are my own insult me on a daily basis
I sit behind closed doors wishing I was never alive
crying and carving my skin...
tearing my heart out only to cribble it to pieces
a life filled with tears and pain
waiting for happiness but never receive it
waiting for someone to tell me its okay to cry but all I get is insults thrown my way.
I just wanna die, even if its for a day
why care for me the day I die.
I'm scared of death but the voices in my head are saying otherwise.
why is death more inviting, then life
when is my time, I'm tired of waiting, being good only for the hurt to haunt me, for the pain to bring me down
pretending to be happy when really I just wanna disappear and be alone
pretending that I'm alive when really I'm just dead..
WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE ALL THIS HATRED
©nunasinger
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