I stared at your photo.
tears burning swelling in my eyes.
the pain seeping through me.
the anguish leaving me dreamless idle restless as I stared into the endless abyss of blue.
taking in your smile.
letting the emotions scream outta me.
yet I couldn't keep my eyes off you as always.
wanting you was my curse.
yet my remedy.
you were never my Achilles heel.
I wanted you here in HD.
not the ghost that haunts me so.
I dream of you.
I feel things I always felt.
yet I suppress them.
the feeling you didn't want to feel.
the feeling like love that tortured me yet I wanted you anyway.
your photo.
it made me melt.
outta of the beautiful hells God gave me you.
and you didn't know it.
God I wanted to paint you like canvas.
every angelic detail.
yet I couldn't deny that I wanted you to be mine.
as I fell in love every time.
©darkmocha
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