A sudden sadness creeps in my soul, like I wanna ball up and cry. Am I wrong to be so disconnected to a love and friend, who chose betrayal, to hurt me and bring upon this amount of pain? O God, lend a ear to hear me, or teach me how to cope, cause this shit hurts towards death? Can feel nothing but sadness, while scribbling with this pen, or in the depths of the weed smoke. Never thought this could happen to me, or experience this much. While putting on a smile on the outside, my insides are crying cause I thought by being a friend, my closest wouldn't betray me. But, what was I thinking, if they did it to Jesus what would make me exempt? So fast and so sudden, bullets ripping and tearing at me, wanting to scream, but have only tears. Man, I tell you this shit hurts."
©gazeldeas
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