I like you.
I cherish you.
all dressed in black with the gentlest of smiles.
weak, but a softness that made my heart ache.
with the bluest eyes in Bama yet staring into them is where I found solace.
so bittersweet.
a heart breaking crushed softly by the girl who once made him complete.
but still I dared not say it.
I was a loner.
solitude had made me cold and bitter.
with a dash of redemption this was never meant to be.
yet she stood there like she was memorizing the anguish in my brown but sad eyes.
flustered red face it embarrassed me to admit my feelings out loud.
to want something as warm and fuzzy as love.
love from such a tiny angelic frame.
yet she was nothing but perfect to me.
and I'd never tell her.
I would just walk by brooding swallowed by insecurity and shame.
yet it was all I had.
lately.
a hard life had turned me into a harsher colder more darker person.
my personality was lacking.
shyness swallowed me like a pit.
so I understand the following words "I have a boyfriend" and "I really am sorry Matthew."
yet they cut me deep like a knife.
I must have cried a thousand tears silently last night.
my pillow drenched in my lonely sorrow.
as my heart ached.
knowing her words could only stop the pain.
the mental anguish that burned me like hellfire and brimstone inside.
the next school day I barely spoke.
my cold shoulder had gotten colder.
yet the little humanity still belonged to her.
in a emotionally poetic kinda of way.
yet it all crumbled at my feet.
that day at a Walmart of coincidences where my heart became incomplete.
©darkmocha
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