she lies in bed
thinking
thinking of everything
she is trying to sleep but she can't
her mind is racing
thoughts of you
thoughts of missed opportunity
she tosses and turns
her mind won't shut down
she has so much on her mind
it's overwhelming
she recalls how much she hides
how she hides from everyone
how she only feels herself
when she puts that pencil to the paper
it's been years since she has done this
but this is her true self
someone that writes
she had forgot the joy it gave her
and the feeling of release from her thoughts
all those years without doing it
she was lost
but now she has found it again
but she still hides for she doesn't
want anyone to know this is who she is
this is what she does
her life with that pencil and paper
it holds who she is
it holds her secerts
©brittany
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