Your last words to me were "I'm sorry you had to see me like this"
And I didn't understand.
You were your smiling self, hiding your heartbreak and suffering behind a curtain of jokes and encouragement.
Your last voicemail to me was "Forgive me for the pain I will cause you"
And I didn't understand.
For you, could never cause me pain, you were the lighthouse in the dark.
Your last hug to me felt like you were saying Goodbye.
And I didn't understand.
I heard the whispered begging for forgiveness in the wind.
A dark feeling hit me like a bat hits a home run.
And
everything
makes
sense.
I stare.
My knees hit the muddy ground as your body swings with the wind.
Everything is murky, I hear howling and it takes some time till I realize that broken sound is me.
Everything makes sense.
©pyrion
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