watching you leave.
the sway of your hips making sweet music to me.
serenading me.
slowly killing my senses.
as I hold my breath.
emotions bottled up just screaming out loud.
something excruciating like love.
the crush that soured my stomach but tasted sweet.
one,two three, as I exhale.
gasping.
taking in the sweet smell of your perfume.
the ache in my chest getting larger.
suddenly I cannot breathe without staring at you.
I long for a sudden intoxicated gaze.
where your blues meet my brown suddenly the world no the universe makes sense.
loving you is the obsession going numb to my brain.
yet I watch you.
the soft clatter of your shoes.
constant wailing screaming at me to say something to pull you close.
yet your grasp is outta reach.
your smile haunting me.
your laugh giving me PTSD.
yet my thoughts won't let me be.
alienated by the want to kiss you.
ravage you in satin white sheets.
your porcelain pale skin soft to touch.
it's something to be caressed.
yet my abandonment issues they get the best of me.
the things I dreamt of doing.
the taste of you freshly caressing my lips.
yet I want you.
I just want your clothes to slip off.
and me take you where you stand.
something so ravaging so pure.
yet I had my time with you tragically for three years.
wishing for more.
knowing it All ended when you left through the door.
©darkmocha
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