Root in our innermost thoughts is all the physical and psychological trauma and struggles that we went through. We are gripping through the suffering which is why we become addicted to the nutrient of the substance of alcohol, drugs, or self-harm.
Whichever we picked didn't matter because it let the easiness in our hearts and brains go into numbness. Just melting within the realization of what at that state of moments to relive the pain of suffering we in dorn; with every drink of alcohol, every inhale, every needle, every pill, or every cut. We just to have the feeling of pleasure from the addiction to ease the pain.
©railyne
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