Apathetic realm of consciousness
A Vision too Dull ,
No Pleasure, no despair
,Overwhelmed by emptiness
too often too Numb,
My world dwells in darkness
under the Shiny sun,
Staring the sky of night
Daring to fly onto delight
Though enjoying the Glorious illuminance of stars ,
Deep down Every nano seconds
feels like a war
Spitting these bars ,
Towards
Escapism I feel afflicted
,Blood shot eyes , Ripping the skies,
Numbed sensations ,
For a moment my utter
World is warm , Cheerfully
Poured with this charm
My blood vessels are constricted
,My feelings , emotions
,and the rationality remains conflicted .
Looking
At the old
scars on my wrist ,
Asking to save me from dying from the mental
agony somehow
Concerning to my Psychiatrist
I dont know what's delight
,what do we coin a Bliss,
A lost soul , a body so sick
, What's the meaning of
Life ,whats the essence of cosmic
Often my Narcissism Gets me Brave
,I dont know what my soul crave ,
and for whom my heart wish.
It's more than
a nightmare i am going through
I have no clue what the hell
Is this existence,
I dont even know why do
i exist
Cherishing no charms ,
Fore arms blood stained red ,
I feel like a failure ,
Just Like a glacier,
Every mole of my
Will .... .. to live melting away ,
Popping the Psychiatric Pill
No fire to initiate my day
No desire to Leave the bed ,
I Will cherish you as the most
Paradised and painful segment
of my
Life even in my final breath
, I could't pretend to be alive , I could't show no More resistance ,
I feel like I intend to loose existence
Contradictory & Simultaneously
I feel like I never existed .
Not the substance or ths behaviour that gets my mind
hooked ,
It's the sweet illusions beyond
Harsh reality to
what My soul is
soulfully addicted
©rishbkohai
R