I'm a roaming helpless soul,
Who so selfishly ended her life,
She thought she had enough and death was a way out.
I'm roaming around the world,
Seeing my family so sad and torn,
My dad questioning his Parenthood,
My mom blaming her self.
My small sister won't stop crying,
She won't stop cursing,
She's so angry at me,
Me for leaving her alone.
My loving boyfriend,
Who did nothing but love me,
Did everything to make me happy,
He blames himself too,
Crying his eyes out,
With a pen and a piece of paper,
He drafts his suicude note.
Today is my funeral,
All my friends are present,
My family all broken and in tears,
It's the first time I'm seeing dad so devastated.
His speech so touching,
Talks about my childhood till date,
I'm in tears watching him,
How i wish I never did it,
All the pain I had,
I thought I was running away from
It's all transferred to them.
Now I'm watching my man saved,
But dead inside,
He faints during the burial
and he's rushed to the hospital.
It's more painful being here,
Watching what I did to them,
Them that loved me so much,
I have left more pain,
And I'm not happy but in more pain,
I wish I knew.
Rest In Peace Mara,
In real sense there's no peace but pieces here,
This everlasting torture is too much,
My soul is blaming me,
And off I go to judgment.
Mara Pain
Life is a series of pain.
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