after you I didn't think I'd ever have to prepare for what came when you left…

after you
I didn't think I'd ever have to prepare for what came when you left
after you
I wasn't sure how long the sadness would last or when I'll stop missing you
after you
I had no intention of loving myself or another to the extent I had loved you
after you
I spent years gathering what was left from what you took and fled
after you
I became what I was terrified of becoming
after you
I lost who i thought I was and found who I never thought I'd be, the person you couldn't love unconditionally
after you
I realised that I was never willing to let go if you didn't break free from me
after you
I started living my life and regardless of missing you, I poured every ounce of love I still had left for you.. into the person I was growing into
after you
was when i realised that it was never me who couldn't love you
after you
I came to the conclusion that it was you who didn't have the ability to reciprocate the love i had for you
after you
I realised that I am worthy & deserving of more than what you were giving
after you
i picked myself up and promised to never let myself fall for someone like you
after you
i finally found the strength to love myself in all the ways i so desperately tried to love you .
RF
©Robyn F