I called her little sunshine
You see daddy is my sunshine so she must be little sunshine
I'd dream of the day when I would get to hold her in my arms
Just 20 more weeks
Just 16 more weeks
Just 10 more weeks
Just 8 more weeks.......
Then I lost her
They told me her heart beat was gone and that I'd have to give birth.
I pay for the women who have lost a child
You do not want to know how it feels when you hold your child who is already gone in your arms
To hold back tears when making arrangements for casket or cremation.
To have all the stretch Mark's and leaking boobs but no child to feed
People telling you not to worry one day you will be a mother
Like your child never existed!
Like the planning and restless nights from kicking never happened!
All the talks you had and clothes you bought mean nothing!
She was my little sunshine
She may be gone but she is still my child
And I sure am her damn mother.
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