The pain I feel which I shouldn't.
You were never mine and I was never yours.
Yet you came my way and healed me from the dark unknown.
Your kindness became my medicine,
you took me to heights I didn't know,
now I exist because of you,
my being is your burden
because I never wanted to see this life
as beautiful as you have made me see,
the blooming of buds, the dance of the waves,
the singing of moon and the paintings of sky.
A whim I have,
to live the days left by your side.
But I am not your sun.
It was my mistake,
your kindness killed me, my sun.
And when I try to fight off
the feelings of my heart
with the thoughts of my mind.
No matter how strong the attempts maybe,
in the end I lay down feeling empty,
surrendering to my heart.
No matter how much I deny,
I end up falling more.
What is this spinning giddy world
I am trapped in?
I think now, the death
from which you saved me
was delightful than
feeling this hopeless.
My light may not be the brightest
but it is enough to lit the dark parts of your life. When you will go making
the eternal bond with your sun,
I will leave my light for you.
Death has become my friend
and soon I will be gone.
But I will be forever with you
in your shadows.
I love You. But no one knows.
©miresahil
M