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alarmed to be in love ||| part iv ||| regret

I was always a shadow,
yet you wanted me to lit up.
So I did for you
and blocked all my paths back.
Burning my boat
at the shore of the endless void.
Who knew I could find you in the dark.
You were also a star, just brighter than all-my sun.
I was afraid to take the plunge,
to take this giant leap.
To find you,
yes I was scared of that moment.
That's all I ever was,
alarmed to be in love.
And now I have become a flower
not a star or a halo to cirlce around you.
But I am leaving my forever fragrance for you. When the nights are darker and the hearts are colder,
feel the wind I will be with you like the air-you breath.
When the nights are brighter,
glimmering with the endless galaxies,
find me in the shimmering dots, I'll be your light. When the time is passing by, hold me.
I'll be in the slipping sand beneath your feet.
And in every song you will hear of the waterfalls, I'll be singing.
In every ray bright that you will see,
I'll be the beauty in your eyes.
And in every emotion that your heart will feel,
I'll be there in ephemral eternities.
When the wind will take her ride this night,
I'll wither away.
Forever in the dark,
to the shadows from where you once took me.
If only I could see one last time.
I'll tell you;
I have loved you, since I saw you.
When I was all but gone,
just a few petals not fallen down.
I saw your face,
I thought my wish had come true.
For someone as me,
this was a dream in a dream.
You took the fall,
looked for the first time in those lonely orbits of mine.
Starry as the sky, you spoke.
I thought, it was about time.
And in the next gaze, I was gone.
You thought my eyes were pretty,
but they held no life.
You yelled,
you screamed,
you cried,
you sobbed.
And I watched you sink into pools grief.
My sun,
stay happy,
like I once knew you.
Vows for eternity,
in those sad smiles I saw you.
Untill we meet again,
in another time,
in another life.
You love me, and now the world knows.
©miresahil