I am the one to be blame .
All i ever wanted her to love like her daughter
All i wanted to sleep keeping my head on her lap.
All i ever wanted her to hold me while I cry.
All i ever wanted to understand me .
All i ever wanted her to be proud of me.
All i ever wanted from her was her LOVE.
But all I ever got was hurt ,pain ,blame.
All I ever saw in her eyes was hatred for me .
All i ever knew from her was how worthless i am ,
how burdensome my existence is ,
how messed up and fucked up i am ,
how I Ruin everything.
U know how people say If you say the same thing even though they r lies
They start feeling real ,
because you start believing in them.
I guess I AM WORTHLESS.
ALL I DO IS MESS UP AND HURT PEOPLE.
Maybe its better for them if I stay away from them
they will be saved from my toxic and burdenself .
"You are a mistake . I am ashamed to be your mother" she said .
I guess I AM A MISTAKE .
It doesn't matter for them if i live ,
it doesn't matter to me if I live ,
I am damn Replaceable bc.
I guess i will give in or maybe not who knows ...
All i know somehow the blame is always on me ..
Always on me
Always me
Always...
Why always me ..?
Why..?
©self_my
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