From the moment I knew who you were going to be, I swore a life of peace .
To bring you into a world of depression , frustration & hatred, I swore I would not.
Whole heartedly I apologize as I write to you in tears as much as I swore, I did not.
As tensions rise and my strength to hold back the loud screams filled with pain , I lost my way...
I broke the promise I swore to you before you ever even knew
For a brief moment there is gasps for air , dizziness , hands flying back and forth that leave small streaks of blood upon our skin I realize ..
The life I blossomed was only a few feet away
All this for what?
We had no intentions of being what some might call " in love " the years we spent side by side showed us that it seems to be the kind of thing you only see in movies or on tv
I will only move forward as I carry what once was my seed as we grow and bury our roots into whatever temporarily is home until we finally reach our garden of hope
To my dear son , one day I will speak to you with only words of truth and you will know that in our garden we speak of only honesty
©ajg1223
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