Standing alone in a dark room,
I feel so broken but at peace,
Maybe a good scream, break a mirror,
I feel like everyone needs me, but what if I leave,
I want to show and give love,
But who really shows interest,
Have no lover, family, friends or associates,
Naw I can still function, just barely with my depression,
This my warning and close to a final message,
Some will say they miss me, but for a good week everything will be different,
Go back to being fine, may be I couldn't bring enough change,
If I'm leaving and I leave your in pain then I'm the blame,
I know life has it's ups and downs, but why does things feel the same,
I'm trying to heal but it's hard with negative feedback,
I want to talk to my son but this line between life and death just won't crack,
Might just join my people up in heaven,
I know I'm still young with so much to accomplish,
But I can't live if everyday I'm reminded that I can't escape my past and it hurts my present,
That's just half my past being held on and the other half welcoming back all my toxic habits.
©dbn1121
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