I've sat here and gotten lost in my desire to feel not alone,
Left with the realization that my heart slowly turnings to stone,
The years without the presence of any softening compassion,
Has made me feel numb, thus became my heart's annihilation,
I crave to feel what I've long since forgotten I've felt before,
In attempts to numb the pain I ended up losing far much more,
Cause I've forgotten how I'm supposed to know how I feel,
And it seems impossible anymore to know if anything is real,
I run head first towards anything shown to me to distract,
But in moments of my intent I remember my heart is cracked,
Trying to forget that in which I had loved and loved so deep,
Made me forget parts of loving that I was supposed to keep.
©justin_ur
J