Is it because,
I can't be him?
Made my mistakes,
and turned into a sin.
I can feel,
my heart breaking,
and mistakes I have been making.
I think I am sinking.
Drowning in thoughts,
that I am not good enough,
for anyone if I can't have you.
I just have to act tough.
I will try my hardest,
to be the man you want me to be.
I am working hard at it.
I wish you would see.
I am actually trying,
to be a real boy.
I am getting rid of this girl body,
which was like a toy.
I wanna be a real boy,
and not this fake girl.
Looking in the mirror,
makes me wanna hurl.
I dont want to be a girl.
I'm trying to be the man,
the one you want me to be.
But all I get is ban.
Ban from you,
cuz I'm not good enough.
I'm trying to hold on,
I'm trying to be tough.
But it's hard,
because I love you.
You are everything to me,
and I want to stay true.
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