Am I ok
or am I insane
if only the war never started
I wouldn't have to question myself
why I did what I had to do
I've lost people in my life
loneliness is a good friend of mine
the grief of losing them us too much
I still see their shadows hanging over me
as I'm crying wishing that they never left
the older I got the more I forgot
some memories vanish and some don't
I remember the execution of one man
I don't remember his name
but I remembered seeing his good ol friend
dying next beside him
the war I participated in failed humanity
it made every single human fight for independence
when all are needed was love
then the world and all would have live as one
as I got older
I developed an illness
everyday I see shadows
I still hear the screams of those who protected us
as my mind looks back at my haunting past
I see the gun I fired once long ago
the scars are just too much
I want to finally be in peace
life after pain is a life of death
after pain death is your best friend
he will end your suffering
might as well just shoot myself
so I can have some peace within my mind
©blackraven
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