looking at me longer than 2 seconds I consider staring .
heart thumping, hands clammy, leg restlessly swaying...social interaction is un bearing .
god I want the invisible rope to let go and my feet to be upright and steady.
waking up and not knowing every detail of the day ...to me that is so fucking scary . I hate it because it's all in my head , all made up , so I take a blue pill and sip the water in the paper cone cup .
overthinking at its best and I'm at my worst I feel like I'm going to throw up .
I should just be able to be normal and not always so heavy. Im just a burden and waste you don't even have to tell me .
©scorpio
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