Making you happy is the hardest thing to do
Everytime i put a smile on your face it turn so blue
I know its been a bumpy ride but these tears I hide
Because I don't normally want you to know what goes on in my real mind
I say I'm fine but really I been plotting on my suicide
There no more room to hide all the pain I felt inside
It tends to seep out where I least expect it
Then when I share my pain you reject it
I don't card about your life and what you have going on
I been struggling on my own for way to long I can't tell you the last place I called home
I just feel so alone
I feel so hurt
Why can't I remove my body from 6ft under the earth
If I suffocate in the earth maybe my life will finally serve a purpose
I can be used over and over
Instead of feeling so worthless
©canada
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