I said yes,
because he begged. He kept on begging. No - a word he didn't understand.
I said yes,
because if I didn't, somebody else would.
I said nothing,
because he said he needed me, and it would be quick.
As I lay here, eyes filled with emptiness...staring at the ceiling, a deep void, a thoughtless mind.
As I lay here, heavily breathing, patiently waiting for these nightmares to end. Now just memories, glued inside of my head, replaying like a broken record...over and over again.
As I lay here, wishing I have never became subject to these words of theirs - yearning for validation through their mucky fingertips...as they caress every inch of my now soiled body.
As I lay here, wishing I had the courage to say no - might have been purple, or blue...if I had the courage to say no.
~O.
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