How to make myself accept, and fully understand
That everything I've ever loved, blows away with the wind
Truly torn away faster than a candle burning at both ends
Hollowness and guilt are steadily knocking at my door
Seeking hard with desperate measure, what do I feel these feelings for
No sooner than I think that I might can raise my head
The burdens of tomorrow knock me down again
They say that you should take only one day at a time
Then comes a haunting thought of skipping to the end of mine
They say ending your own pain is a selfish way to die
Yet I say, kinda selfish of you to want to keep me in this life
You don't feel this torture over and over and over again
Pains become my place of comfort, if you'll just try to understand
I've had all my dreams change to a million grains of sand
Life swept right out from under me and left nowhere to stand
The ones that I truly love placed in seats among the sky
Hoping when I get there, they'll be saving mine
Not ever really sure of good directions I should go
Never can I seem to find the one referred to straight and narrow
You noticed when you look, no hope among my eye
Mostly just the rivers that I always seem to cry
You look at me and see a man about to break
You finally understand as you see it's just my fate
Never from this nightmare no relief if I should wake
©terrysloan
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