It's almost been a year since you left,
I've been trying to hold on, but fact's that I can't live without you, I want to know that you still love me and that you still wanna be with me.
For month I've been lying, saying that I'm not affected and saying that I don't really believe in love but thing is everytime I talk to you is like it was the time I found out I loved you.
I've even been telling my best friends that I'm "OK" but all I really want is to know if you're OK.
I try saying a prayer for "us" before I go to sleep but it feelseems like God is mad at me or something cause non my prayers are being answered.
I really wan' take drugs but I keep on thinkin' that's the reason why you left me, and plus all I think about when I get high is you. Or maybe it's because I'ma pessimist or maybe it's cause I wonder if I'm good enough for you.
I stare at my wrist with anger cause I have your name tattooed on it, it's some constant reminder that you're gone when all I wanted was for us to be close and thing is you left with my soul, which really hasn't left me normal.
I guess it's a fact that I fell in love with you before I even knew you, and if I had my way you'd still be mine.
I know you were made for me but all I want you to know is that I would, could, can and will change for you.
I try telling myself that I won't fall but everytime that I see you in slip into a bottomless pit and funny thing is I wouldn't mind getting lost even if it means me becoming something I would never see myself being, I guess I now believe the term "Breaking up is hard but moving on is even harder." Spending every night wondering what we could have been.
©darthizumi
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