So many questions run through my mind
Hoping maybe I'd get a chance to rewind
Atleast to wipe the moment
Your life began
Baby
As you grow in my womb
Day by day
Tears fill my eyes
And so much pain I feel
Knowing it's going to be just you and i
Wondering how you are going to survive
For your dad
Wants nothing to do with us
Baby
As days go
So near you are to come
I can't keep you
But I don't wanna kill you
My child mama is weak
From all the crying and regrets
This wasn't the life I planned for you
Baby
I'm shattered and broken
Knowing that it was my fault
Everything is my fault
If I chose protection
I'd not be in this mess
If I atleast ignored the lust
This would not have been our story
I gave into the temptation
Quenched my thirst
That one night
Despite my conscience warning me
If I only listened to my instincts
"Majuto Ni mjukuu huja badae"
That's a Swahili saying
That won't stop running through my mind
Baby
How can you continue growing in an
Already dead body
How can you survive in a hopeless place
It's weeks since I last ate
Not even water has touched my tongue
I'm growing weaker as days go by
My faith is terribly shaken
Baby
If I decide to get rid of you
Just know mama loves you
Go back there and watch over her
Don't question her actions
Don't blame her
For she already blames her self
Don't hate her
For she hates her self so much
Baby just look down
With lot's of love
Even though she cut short your life
Pray for her
And continue loving her
Baby
If maybe I keep you
Just don't ask about your dad
The man who wants you dead
For he will be dead
Dead and gone from our lives
His grave I'll show you
Baby
You are mama's strength
Her Hope
Her will to survive
Her reason to live
For she loves you so much
And there's no way
She will let you go
Baby
I'll wipe my tears now
For I know you will make me smile
I'll make sure you have everything you need
No matter what the cost will be
I'll be your hero
Your shield
And your protector
For finally I have a reason to live
A little person to protect
With lot's of Love
Mama.
©mara_pain
DON'T let YOUR pain DEFINE you.
©mara_pain
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