Today I decided I going get take one big step. Because today I like myself again. I learn how to be me. Life has it up and down. Just like my feelings. I have been looking for something new in my life. I decided to change the course of time. I always put myself last. My favorite part of me is my love. It also is my down Falls. Love always try put me in the loop. If he ever knows the decision he makes. It affects me too. I just want to be happy in life. I am so ready for a change. I am ready to start fresh. But the unknown scared me. The next cheaper one is hard. This chapter is all about me. Don't know what's behind that door. Will the love of my life. Follow or be lifted behind. Do I stay behind with him? Or do I follow my dreams? Putting myself first is hard. Because I don't feel like I am first. I am learning to love myself. Every day I take one step forward. Look for parades I guess. Tell trying to find me. But today I took a big step. I was like one story in time. My journey is long. It is hard to find me. One day someone told me I was nothing. The feeling of failure. To think I can be something big. Putting fear in my heart. The best thing about me is my heart. That you sold and gave it always. Just like my hope and dreams. I want to down this road too many times. Now it is time to get off the roller coaster. My heart is pure. It is stronger. But I don't know if it is free. But fear stops me. I hear a whisper in my ears. Remember the past. Then I remember everything life has driven it. Make my journey. That fears that one day. My dreams and hope will be gone. How can the past let you go? There said forget how can you when the past doesn't set you free. Some things are new. I am so ready. Right now my life is going to drive change. Time is on the run. I was like one story in time. My poems are growing. Because my feelings are grown up. I like her come to the fears. Hear you laugh at me. Saying to me you will never be that person. He will never take this feeling away. This feeling is real. My heart is full of love. But you don't like me to stay there for long. That fear you put on me. I know this is not a poem is a story. Is a story trying to be a poem, That special person in my life? He is scared of letting go. Because letting go is hard. That one thing he holding on to. That one thing will stop me. I will be a step faster on my journey. But If he let go. It will scare me. Because of what my heart needs. That will mean that he will walk with me hand and hand. But if I have to climb Mountain alone. I know there someone reaches out to me. Help others who need help. My past will help others. My past won't hold me back. This is a discussion I have to make all by myself. Putting me first. To say I make it to the top. Now I look at my past. I say look at me now. I made it without fear. With my eye wide open. My eye is shining. That I am who I want to be. I feel like a mirror. The refreshing in my eye. Tell me I get there. I am a work in progress.
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