Drunk teen bathroom floor. football player wants to score. Head hurts, I hit the sink, please just stop I'm far to weak. Headache building, videos made, cold floor...now I'm the whore. Two-day black out, broken foot, looking around everyones passed out.
I see him at school, I say "Hi", he ignores me apparently to him im just a test dummy.
High school crush. boy I thought I "loved" after high school we hit it off. I was nervous and scared of what he would think, but we laughed and joked till my sides felt weak. He hugged me then kissed me and told me to wait. My shirts shirts now off, laying naked in his bed...feeling self conscious afraid to lift my head. he comes back in and kisses my forehead, and in that exact moment everything's perfect.
Met online, an open doors kind of gentelman. Went to the strip, had drinks and a night of karaoke, then 3 dates later forces himself on me. were cuddled up together in his bed watching a movie I say "please no, I dont think im ready" ignoring my pleas he uses his weight i tell him again" i think we should wait" he said "well baby, im ready... it's time to finish this date"
Met a girl late that summer. She asked me for my number. Three motnths fly by and the relationship flowers. Then just like that things turn really bad. we were yelling and fighting, acting real mad. More lies and the cheating lead to trust issues and beatings. I stayed so long the whole time believeing. She left scars on my body, heart, and mind until I finally found my wings and was shown i could shine. I flew away that night to a whole new world. Thinking to my self you've got this now go get it and give it a whirl!
Found a man whose pretty perfect , wish he could see that I'm not worth it. He treats me like a princess while I treat him like I could care less says he wants to have babies with me..I say "wow, really? this is crazy" "put your baby in me" " make me a mommy." These lies I tell him lead him on, make him think I'm in it for the long. I tear us apart and break his heart before I go, telling him I love him even though I don't know...
He showed me affection said his child needed attention. The heat must have gotten to me cause of course I trusted him, said his child was in the hospital who am I to question? I lent him my car he lied, wrecked it and left now im here with the awful weight on my chest
Waited eight months, i was fine being single then you come out of no where and start to mingle. Things moved fast we were always together made me start to think that this could actually be forever. then all of a sudden the switch got flipped down and everyhting i knew came crumbling to the ground. I found out you lied you thought you wouldnt get caught you tore me down and said every fight was my fault. you
then lost your job and had to leave me alone, and ghosted me immediately you left my mind blown. days went by as i sat confused and upset then you called me out of nowhere trying to flirt and fix it, said you " saw me acting happy " you say "I miss you" "im sorry" "ill do better please, take me back baby" I listen to you shocked, alone and confused. I know deep down this time is just like the last, but in this moment in time he's all I have.
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