let me tell you why I have some bad luck
cause everytime I try im never good enough
everybodys happy without me
I'm never needed
I'm heated
that no one really gives a fuck
and i think i don't have a heart no more
cause everytime i feed it
they eat it
break it to pieces
I'm really hating the way they treat it
I'm so fucked up
I cant reconstruct
so I self destruct
and my mind blows up
guess its just my luck
to get fucked over and over again
never happy again
can't win
guess this is the end
the last time
last sign
that they have to give
and that sucks
im such a sad fuck with bad luck
and alot of shit on my mind
stop wasting my time
you just wanna see me decline
why you gotta come from behind
like damn
I'm alive
I'm so fucking surprised
can't you see the pain in my eyes?
I am
pessimistic
super distant
mentalistic
I just wanna be
happy why is that so hard for me?
why is it getting so hard to breath?
can't control my thoughts
anxiety
its taking over
lie to me
and cry to me
watch me fall
and drop the ball
bad luck rain over me
no one is proud of me
no one is there for me
I've tried to be
the most happiest person you'll ever see
but thats all a lie
my eyes holding all of the pain
the rain hitting harder
as it gets darker in my mind
I'm such a sad fuck with bad luck
~a.used.human
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