maybe if I lay a blade to my wrist ill feel like I exist maybe it'll take away the numbness maybe ill finally have some control as the sharp edges take their toll maybe as I'm taking my last breath ill think of him and everything we could have been everything we would have been I decided to let go despite everything I take the blade and press it in slicing deep within my skin I watch the blood trickle as I do it again and again vertical horizontal deep red its breath taking and as I spend my last minutes on earth I think of him and how he gained my trust just to break it again and again
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