You only accept blame with a justification
Yes, I was wrong but only because of you
I’m going to do what I want to
Don’t worry I’ll always take you into consideration
Until it interferes with my desires
Letting my ex back in was a mistake
But your reaction was not what I wanted
Which gives me the right to hurt you
I shouldn’t have seen him behind your back
But I have to try and make everyone happy
Even if you’re left in pain
Sure our bed was where I should have laid
So you shouldn’t have pissed me off
Now sit alone blindsided and confused
Yes kissing is cheating
I only did because I half asleep in his bed
My bad if thar crushes you.
Now the truth is coming out
I remind you that you love me
As I sit here with red hands
You know I love you too
Yet you need to understand
I’ll always have a backup plan.
You think I don’t care about your feelings
Or I’m just playing a sick game
This is how I protect myself
For when you choose to leave again
No worries if you don’t
I’ll always run from a love that can last
You now know the real me
A master of illusion
The decision is yours alone
Forgive, trust and love me unconditionally
As you pray for a different ending
Or leave to be alone in a beautiful misery.
Still we both know what you’ll do
Stay, and as you hope this is love is true.
©carsonlee
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