Because of you

Because of you I am afraid
That I will fail in this life
I fasted and I have prayed
That somehow I'd survive
Just wanna prove you wrong
Maybe you'll sing another song
Because 9f you I have doubt
Don't wanna think out loud
Afraid it won't come true
And you don't have a clue
What you have instilled in me
My deeper fear you can't see
Because of you I'm paranoid
Most things I just try to avoid
Coz I'm not ready to bet on me
First I need to set myself free
From what's going on inside
In my corner where I hide
Because of you I push harder
Trying to be much stronger
I refuse to fail because of you
Because of you I'll get through
Coz I always go for the kill
At times even against my will
©lenni-x