behind my smile

Today I will smile,
Pretend all is well,
While inside my heart,
Drops down a deep well.
I’ll smile and I’ll laugh,
You won’t even see,
That behind my joy,
I cannot break free.
My mind is in turmoil,
I wish I could scream,
To show you my tears,
But instead I beam.
Happiness plastered,
All over my face,
I’ll push you away,
Say I need some space.
Inside my heart,
I wish I could show,
How much there is pain,
How much there is woe.
Inside my mind,
I wish you would see,
How lonely I feel,
My desperate plea.
Instead I’ll pretend,
You won’t know the truth,
You won’t even notice,
You won’t even sleuth.
You’ll never discover,
What’s truly inside,
How much of my pain,
Every day I hide
Carolann
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