being away from you has turned into a nocturnal animal. like a caged spawn I dream away at you taking in your Coke bottle shape. the seductive hourglass of my own affections yet the ghost of you only to fuck me and leave me behind like a little street rat.
a street rat with wings.
blinded by my own insecurities where insanity is cruel yet you are my sanity and missing you is like scratches the metal bars of a jail cell.
the tearing of flesh as I clenched my fists.
welcoming the agony of wanting you near yet you're thousands of miles away and the loneliness is brimming.
tears fall to the cold floor as your memory causes me to ache feeling the dark within as I become my own shadow.
torturey, such torturey to want something yet not have it.
anger consumes me as madness starts to be my happy place.
yet I dream just to sleep.
just to feel.
you.
of all things.
yet you haunt my mind.
like a siren.
I'm seduced easily.
yet I dream of times you are with me.
yet the loneliness.
it kills me.
harshly surely but forever so softly.
I wanna fuck you in my grave.
cold watery mud.
the swallowing of warm skin.
making a casket for two.
to feel you again.
I guess death will do.
©darkdeity
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